To be or not to be...

You’re a deadly drug, one I’m better off without,

But I’m still attracted to you, my brain’s in a rout.

I still want to know you like me, I need to hear your voice,

I seem to be entranced, it looks like I have no choice.

You brought nothing but trouble,

Yet I enjoyed every moment,

The exhilaration I felt,

Obliterated the frustration and torment.

The mystery that is you, I truly can’t comprehend,

Your life’s in ruins, still towards you my fantasies tend.

My heart skips a beat, when I hear your name,

It's definitely not love, but it also ain't a game.

What IS it, I ask myself, time and again,

Your mesmeric hold over me, I hate and disdain.

I know you feel something when you think of me too,

But what ended abruptly, I can only imagine and rue.

I often miss those days, and in their memories I brew,

I hope you read this, and I’m sure you’ll know this is for you...

-Princess