Jaanam Samjha Karo

Sometimes I think you're an illusion,
Yet the tears rolling down my morose face are so real.
I wanted you though you made me cry with each breath…

Just a few lines that passed through my mind and left a mark… Thought I’d share with you…

"No one knows why some things work out and why some don't." A lovely line from the movie Notting Hill. A lovely movie, though I don't like Julia Roberts and Hugh Grant looks silly when he repeats every word/sentence twice.

The weather in Pune is going from bad to worse. It's cold one evening and burning hot the next. It rains without reason at times, and I'm suffering for it! Caught a horrible cold... Sick of sniffling and sneezin... I hate being unwell! Benadryl is my knight in shining armor at the moment ;-)

The Bacardi Megamix party was not as great as I'd anticipated. DJ Suketu played stupid tracks and kept admonishing the people when they weren't shouting loud enough. Why would they when the music was so tthanda? The crowd was pretty chic, but the turnout was low. Considering Pune's sad night life and few good parties, I'd expected a higher attendance. They'd have been disappointed though, coz the party wrapped up at 11.30 pm. Why make people drive so far to Wagholi when they wanted to adhere to city time deadlines?

I am now addicted to Facebook courtesy its many fun applications. So, I now own a Café and even a Zoo :-) I’m not into Farmville and Mafia Wars yet which most of my friends play… Quite a craze!! Oh, I finally bought some earrings and the third book in the Twilight series - Eclipse. I'm afraid it won't be as exciting as the previous two, but gotta read regardless!! Downed 100 pages already and still very much in love with both Edward and Jacob... And sorry for Bella... Poor gal, stuck between love and friendship; I know how that feels...

I met a friend last week and we were just chatting away about our GMAT and MBA abroad stuff. He wanted to do dhuaan-dhuaan so we landed up at Mocha near Symbi / Law College. (One thing I hate to do is spend money at Mocha. The prices are outrageous! The bill was close to 850 bucks and what did we order – just a pasta, chicken starter, shake and of course, hookah. Silly ruffians! We could have caught some drinks and a full meal someplace else at that price...)

Anyhow, we got talking and he lapsed into the tale of his college days. While reminiscing about his girl-adventures and guy-pranks, he told me he was “kinda desperate” at that point of time for you-know-what…

I didn’t bat an eyelid. I am dead sure I would have cracked up had this incident occurred a few years ago. In fact, I appreciated his candor and his willingness to share such personal feelings with me. I find myself able to “hear” (and not just listen) a lot of unnatural confessions these days. I seem to understand a lot of unsaid emotions. Guess I’m really becoming mature! I even try to rein in my dirty temper when I'm truly annoyed. Of course, I do lose it in that split second, but I feel bad for the other person and make amends soon after. I'm nice, na? :-)

Even at work, there are so many people who come up to me and start sharing their personal experiences and hurdles without an invitation. As a trainer, I’m merely supposed to brush up their communication skills and confidence. However, more than a few of them get pally and thank me for being a good listener. Feels good :-)

And I might as well confess, I have even made 3 of my students cry… (2 women and a man, for those interested in details... No, I did not hit them.)

I don’t know how… I think I was a little harsh on them coz they JUST weren’t understanding the basic stuff despite having been taught for ages. And there’s the carrot and stick approach, right? Some people just don’t learn until they’re shouted at and pushed. One thing I can’t stand is laziness and lack of dedication. Awrite that’s two things, but you get it, right? I did apologize to them later, and now I try to be calmer… Quite a challenge given my raging temper, but if you don’t do your best (be it in class or in a relationship), you’ll have to deal with me…

People show care through anger, which is sweet, but not exactly the best way to express your concern. Wouldn’t you be spoken to softly and lovingly when you’re sick in bed rather than be yelled at coz you don’t take good care of yourself? There’s a time for everything, and there’s a way of doing things. And if you cannot judge a situation and act appropriately, then you are not worth being human. The next time you find yourself experiencing ANY emotion, please ensure that you state it truly and express it correctly. You will notice that the situation is markedly more different and positive.

Have you watched Bigg Boss lately? The place is a mess. The participants this time round are truly boring. Be it Vindu who is Dara Singh’s son, or Rohit Verma who is a crybaby fashion designer. I was unsure till the day before who exactly Kamal Khan was and what his claim to fame was, and then I saw that he had produced and acted in a film called “Desh Drohi”, which irked the MNS and obviously crashed at the box office. (Apparently, he’s making a sequel now. LOL, some people never learn!)

The guy is such a jerk! He’s mannerless, vain, irritating and repulsive. The way he speaks and behaves on the show is nothing short of revolting. He did get evicted from the house of BB but I'm guessing he'll be brought back through a “wild card” entry. Big Boss needs somebody to create ripples and excitement, can't afford to let the TRPs drop… The world’s a sly and selfish place…

Here's your respite and confidant!!

Me.

Princess