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Good, Bad or Just Meant to Be...
The sun grabbed a cushion of billowing white clouds and
lazily opened one eye to the world. How would it be if he refused to get up and
follow his daily drill today?
Humans despised monotony, hell, he was a god more powerful
and free. But with great power comes great responsibility, as a famous movie
said. And he was all ready to take on all the duties that he was bestowed with
(hell, did he have a choice?)
She awoke with a groan, waking up early had never been easy
for her. But she had to, coz he needed to get up and get ready for work.
She was the proverbial black sheep, not good for the family
reputation and community, but she was what she was. And she had no intentions
of changing for anybody or anything. And yet, when she married the man of her
dreams (or so she believed), she had to lay down to rest some of her dreams and
She was prepared for it, she said. And everyone believed
her, since that is what she screamed she wanted. When someone raised a concern
about how much her life would change, she convinced hem (and herself) tha it
was all for the best…
She got him all that he wanted or desired. And that soon
turned against her, as he started devoting more time and attention to those
objects than to her. Such is life, when you try to fulfil the wishes of the one
you love, he starts loving those objects more than you yourself. And then he
claims, he never really wanted anything anyway, and that you have been an
obstacle in his achievements, personal and professional.
She wondered how and where she was going wrong. Was it wrong
to fulfil the wishes of the one you loved? Was it better to have him yearn and
wait for his dreams? Coz her sacrifices were going to waste either way. There
was absolutely no appreciation or thankfulness on any front.
She had always been independent, in thought and action,
financially and logically. Yet, her biggest failing was her emotional
dependency on the people that she loved. Him. More since they had committed to being each other's. And he either did not understand
that, or he enjoyed making her feel lonely and empty inside.
She was confident, and yet in some situations, she felt as naïve
as possibly Shashi (from her favorite Bollywood flick English Vinglish) on her
maiden trip to the US. Her husband, who prided himself on his many qualities
supported and loved her, and made her feel inadequate in turns. Making her hate
him and their relationship ever so often. Her confidence was not as great as she thought when he was involved in the situation.
But then, that’s how some things are… You think you know
what you want, and you struggle for it, and then you wonder if what you fought
for and achieved was really the best that you could have got. Can we be assured
of a better future if we refuse what is in front of us?
And what was in his heart...? Was it the same turmoil, or did he simply not care...???
The year has gone by real fast, as I've undoubtedly mentioned a hundred times before :-)
And I look back to see how I've fared, managed to accomplish a fair bit as a mother and professional, and tried to be a better friend, wife, daughter, etc. Evaluating my success on these criteria is outside the scope of this post, and my head, so let me look at how I'm feeling at the end of it.
Working moms like me, how are you doing?
I often end up feeling like I'm missing on so many things in life choosing to juggle my home and office work. The financial and intellectual independence that my job affords me takes its toll on my social presence and connects. I look at womenfolk in my apartment mingling with each other and talking non stop about issues that I cannot make head or tail of, since their conversation started in the kitty last week and will (hopefully) find a resolution by the kids play date the following week. Try as I might, I can't hold a complete conversation…
Almost a month since my last post, time to say Aloha June! Time's a-flying. Like someone once said, "the hours don't pass, but god knows where the months and years went" - okay, that's not exactly what he/she said, but this was the interpretation. More like "lamhe katt-te nahi, saal beet jaate hai". Work's catching up pace and I'm making up for all the lost and compromised time during my maternity leave and baby-raising tenure. Getting ahead at work is a task in a corporate world where people are forgotten the moment you don't connect with them regularly or do something to catch their attention. I've managed to do that and more, and my rating is proof of my effort. Feeling damn kicked about it, and want to do even better this year for my wonderful employer. I am blessed to be with Hitachi Consulting, and I pretty much plan to stick on unless something really extraordinary comes around. The kind of flexibility and support they've allowe…
Having to deal with idiots is no joke. Look around and you will find them in plenty, at work and outside - no dearth of them at all. Birdbrains, the bunch of them.
( Grrr )
And it's worse when you're having restless nights abounding in nightmares.
Not a mighty chirpy temperament that I'm in, I'm sure you can tell.
So, well. I'm back from my sojourn - first to the north and then down south (like not really down down, but kinda downer than where I generally am). I was thinking that I'd be pleased to be away from the city (and most importantly, routine) during this period. But well, I did get homesick after a while and wanted to return to home-made food and family.
Landing in Pune was a delight, and things are back to normal (too fast for my liking!)
So, for those of who are wondering why I'm getting nightmares...
(You forgot, right? That's all right. Shan't let you go unless I address this.)
So, I met my colleagues from Hyderabad, China and the US…