Insan(e)

People never cease to amaze me… First of all, thrs this unflagd race goin on all the time at evry signal on evry street… Whats d hurry buddies? But I’v spoken enuf abt dat in “Road Rage” so wudn’t want to lapse into dat again… wat m sayin here is ppl come in all shapes n sizes, n v often make mistkn jugdmnts abt them… There are those who I don’t think are worth a 2nd glance, yet they bcum an integral part of my life thnx2their luvly nature and adorable behavior... And then thre r those I wish to meet a million times before it gradually dawns upon me that they’re nuthin but a bucketload of s***. I‘m sure u’ve experiencd d same.

V’r so immature na? V let go of our rationality and get blown away by emotions and intuitions. When we hit Mother Earth (sumtimes wid a huge THUD), v realiz how silly v wer to b taken for a ride. V vow not to be so gullible n foolish d next time, but r v realy successful? I doubt it… Really admire those self-actualizd folks who can live happily and carelessly, not botherd by how others behave and nt affectd by wats goin wat way…

I had a 2B batch dat ended recently, n it started wid a bang. 3 handsome hunks n 1 simple cheerful woman. I’d expectd fireworks, n thr wer quite a few as they attemptd to gel wid eachodr, at times to no avail ;-) but it was fun al d same, unfortunately an anti-climax, as it dint end as wel as I’d hoped it to… rem I told u once abt my last 2A? it was gr8 al thru… even after it got over, had expectd d same here, but … Anyways, my current 2A is a huge surprise. Notwidstanding d fact dat I need to get up early weekend mornings to take d class, my batch now boasts of a robust 5 – 4 gals n a swiss guy. Its goin well… n I get my laughs frm here to kickstart d day…

Other than dat, there r 2 ppl who surprised me… one is a sweet, little (literally) person who I dint think much abt whn I met him 1st, but now it feels as if I’v known him all along. He makes me very very happy n I luv spending time wid him. Attitude lik was I’v alwes adored, gives me praise n priority which leaves me little to ask for, and well, how shal I say? Jus abt evrythin I’d dreamd about… God pland for us to meet n v did, but I wish v’d met sooner… v’re gr8 buddies, n wil alwes b… he undstds me betr dan I can say, n I can read his mind. We laugh 2gdr, v share joys n sorrows (ample of both), but life is much happier n content thanx to him…

The other one is one I had gr8 expcttns from… Smart, decent, ambitious, sincere, simple, consider8, unassuming... thot he’d be an amazing person to stand by for life, but ego raisd its dirty head n made life ugly… m glad I had d guts to call it quits n move on… I realizd life has much betr thins in store for me… God luvs me!

I duno how my relations wid these people will chng over d days, weeks, yrs… But I certainly wont forget thm ever… I can forgive, nt forget…not d guds, nor d bads… Dats life, aint it? Full of lessons and experiences… Wid each person I meet, I gro as a person, regardless of whether I like him/her or not, whether I keep in touch wid him/her or not… So far, I’v learnt not to lie… to be good to those who cant return d favor… to be happy… To not expect… N life is indeed feelin good… who says happiness lies outside you? It’s within, jus delve a lil deeper…

-Anuja

Comments

~Abhi said…
Beautiful post!
Sumant said…
Come on lonely princess...grow up.its a beautiful post and u write well.but ur posts are alwez one side of the coin.its ur pain.someone can be bad or hurt u but have u taken a minute to understand his or her side of story.i dont think so so..u can live a life queensize ut very imperative to have a heart kingsize. Dont try to have a draconian rule in ur life.u may be proud of having lived up to ur expct.but u may heart others with no fault of theirs and bcoz they wernt heard...a guilty is not alwez guilty becoz she or he is silent....tc

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